On The Road

Qu-est'ce que c'est?   20, Gibraltar/Kingston, English Literature Student

I feel mildly guilty

about the fact that people keep calling me and trying to make plans with me and all I want to do is sit in my house in my bikini, drinking vodka and listening to Joy Division and Kanye West.

I feel worse about the fact that I have no vodka.

— 2 years ago
Interviewer:How about your concept of love. What do you think about love?
Peter:Love has almost become a sacrifice. I fall in love and then I think, this person who I love is going to be better without me. So I just move on. I still believe in love, but at the same time I know deep in my heart that it is going to end. Love exists, I believe in it, it’s like a taste in my mouth, I can sense it. I can feel, I love this girl, this woman, but actually in a month, two months or maybe tomorrow I’m going out the door and not coming back. Because it’s no way to live.
Interviewer:Are you skeptical about your own ability to love?
Peter:It’s not just skepticism, it’s also honesty. But you tell someone that, they seem to like it, they seem to like the honesty. They seem to like the thought that you are so brutally honest.
Interviewer:But nobody forces you to walk out the door...
Peter:Right, okay. But you walk out the door if you want to walk out the door. When you feel you are becoming someone you don’t want to be. You are becoming jealous, paranoid. I do that, and I don’t want to do that. I think: Who am I? I don’t want to be this person. And as soon as that person you had this honeymoon period of being in love with, as soon as the first cracks appear – for example, you have the first argument. And that’s it, almost. That’s why people take drugs. They try to create an artificial state, an artificial universe where you never have to walk out the door. Where you always feel the same.
— 2 years ago with 205 notes
No words to describe this man.

No words to describe this man.

(via iwantyouheadless)

— 2 years ago with 2940 notes
Whenever I tell anyone I want to adopt a baby from China they think I am just saying it to be quirky or cutesy, but I’m completely not.  

Whenever I tell anyone I want to adopt a baby from China they think I am just saying it to be quirky or cutesy, but I’m completely not.  

(Source: sanjyot)

— 2 years ago with 146 notes
I don’t know what Devendra is doing to this lady but I want him to do it to me.

I don’t know what Devendra is doing to this lady but I want him to do it to me.

(via macdaddyc)

— 2 years ago with 10141 notes
Unpopular opinion but…

I am becoming increasingly disillusioned with ideas of falling in love and similar silly things. I understand love, and I have so much love for so many people - but I don’t think the idea of “falling in love” with someone can possibly be real or true. Its becoming gradually more apparent to me that “falling in love” with someone is just being incredibly fond for someone, and realising that you are a girl and they are a boy and therefore it would be practical to form a relationship and trial whether you would be good mating partners. 

Adopting this view, I am finding that homosexual relationships provide greater evidence for truth in the concept of “falling in love” - but even then I cant help but assume that “falling in love” is just a romantic phrasing to depict a fondness and attraction between two people. Because that is all that it really is, mutual fondness and attraction. Why do we, as humans, glorify love so much? Its not much more than that. 

— 2 years ago with 3 notes
#cynicism  #love